January 1, 2022, I vow to myself that I will post on my blog once a month. Not the first time to promise this to myself.
January something, 2022, Booster Shot – Less fatigue and aches and pains than second vaccine, less brain fog but still- brain fog.
February 1, 2022, No January post. Not the first time to break a promise to myself. Vow to post on my blog this month, no matter how short.
All month, blog ideas swirling in my mind, bits and pieces written in Morning Pages and writing groups with friends. Lots of feelings about languishing this past year or two, lots of sadness, loss. Then the news of Russia invading Ukraine, absolutely horrifying. What to write about, what to say?
February 28, 2022
I go on my blog for the first time in a long, long, long, time.
Message- No traffic this week, but don’t give up!
My blog site has a better sense of humor than I do.
About an hour later my dear friend Layne sent me something I wrote in 2011- it lifted my spirits, brought back wonderful memories, and reminded me to look ahead. If you would like a clear space away from the here and now, I hope you enjoy the following-
July 2011
Well, this is embarrassing. Last week at the writer’s group, I read an essay from a couple of years ago titled, What would you do if you knew you could not fail? It was a great reminder to me, but I also shared that I had an idea to write about and then it left me so quickly I could not remember it for the life of me. My friends assured me that if it were important, it would come back to me. Well, a couple of days later it did come back to me, however this incredible idea now seems to lack any importance at all. Let’s see if I can convey any of this with clarity and hopefully a little humor. Here goes.
Last Saturday night, I was watching the end of a special about the Monkees on an HD music channel. It was about 4 years old, and I know I have seen it before. This was Carmaggedon weekend, and little did I know that the Monkees were at the Greek that very night, just as I was listening to Davy Jones proclaim that the Monkees would not likely every play as a group again. Oh, the power of Never Say Never. Layne and I could have sailed to the Greek that evening and seen one of our idols, Micky Dolenz. But I digress as this was not my inspiring memory and revelation.
As the special was playing (I’m Not Your) Steppin’ Stone, all these memories of the 4th or 5th grade came flooding into my mind. I went to school in Orange County, CA just a couple of streets over from Yorba Linda, CA birthplace of our President, Richard Millhouse Nixon, and a visit to his childhood home was a mandatory field trip every year.
During 1970-71, a few teachers created a dance/drill team during recess. My friends and I joined because we got to learn dance routines on the blacktop and did not have to play tag or hopscotch or the dreaded games of dodge ball or tetherball. Steppin’ Stone was the first song we danced too. Can you imagine how thrilled I was? My love of the Monkees, my favorite, Micky Dolenz, and all the recess politics were gone. The next number we learned was to the song Band of Gold by Freda Payne.
In looking through my rear-view mirror of life, my friends and I had a wonderful time while it lasted, we knew all the dance moves and all the lyrics to the song. Our moms sewed us matching drill team-like dresses. Our teachers were young and fun, one of them was even President Nixon’s niece.
Somewhere in my early teens I figured out the meanings of the lyrics of these songs. I am sure gave it little thought, oh, that’s what that meant. But what occurred to me last Saturday night was, What were those teachers thinking?? I was by no means the most naïve girl in the group but come on. Micky is singing about a girl who he thinks is using him and Freda is singing about something that went horribly wrong on her wedding night.
I do remember talking to my friends about what a Band of Gold was, we figured it had something to do with collecting gold. In the 4th grade, living in California, we learned all about the Gold Rush and lived very close to Knott’s Berry Farm. I never gave any thought to the Monkee’s lyrics of course because who cared!! As a side note, having the name Mary in the 60’s and 70’s was really awful because it showed up in so many songs. I hated this with a passion, but secretly was thrilled with the Monkee’s song, Mary Mary. And again, Micky sang lead so who cared about the lyrics. Yes, I know they were written by Michael Nesmith, Liquid Paper heir.
Perhaps my teachers were getting back at the system, our principal was a crazy man, sincerely. He was nuts. We could not talk during lunch, we had to be completely silent. Among other events, the upper grade girls signed a petition to be allowed to wear pants on Fridays. He called us all into a room and told us what we did was illegal and threatened to tell our parents, we clearly had not learned any American history at this point. However, a smarter, braver girl, my best friend Robin, told her parents and some changes were made. Or maybe the teachers had to wade through all the songs about Vietnam, protests, drug abuse, or loving the one you’re with, and these were two of the least offensive or maybe they were too confusing for us to figure out. Maybe the teachers could not figure out all the lyrics and did not care at all. There was no way to know the lyrics on a 45. Remember you had to play the record over and over, What are they singing? For what it’s worth (another great song!), we had fun and we loved the songs and the opportunity to dance.
Now I live in a world where my son’s elementary school screened every talent show performance for any suspect lyric or possible gyration, while other parents are signing their kids up for Toddlers Tiaras and Dance Moms. I also live in a world where every band I have ever heard in my entire childhood, except for the Beatles, has gotten back together for a farewell tour, a reunion tour…
So, Layne, I’m going with you next time!
P.S. And we did. I got to see Micky and Mike perform several years ago. I have had the privilege of meeting Micky on a few occasions. Sadly, Mike passed away recently. And today is the anniversary of Davy’s passing, February 29, 2012.
RIP Davy, Peter, and Michael
I am blessed with the joy you all brought to this world. I will strive to find more joy in the moments in my life while I remember to pray without ceasing for those who are suffering.